Art of living

Several times I have asked myself , "Do I have anything in me ? Any Art that would amaze everyone  ?"

I used to do paintings when I was a kid ( have many certificates of merit) , learnt cricket for few years ,loved to act.

I used to sing and dance ( most of the times when I was alone ). I have a passion for drama (did a few stage shows). I used to love stories. I still do and also to write a few.

Temptations

The basic instinct of need comes from what we see around. May be it is the common psychology of human brain. Sometimes we don't get attracted to things or people or don't feel the urge to achieve them until we see someone enjoying them.

As a Child !!

As a Child one enjoys life so much without the burden of anything on his/her shoulders. There is no tension of jobs , responsibilities towards family members , adjustments with spouse , no tensions or calculations of EMI's and bank loans.

Although as a Child one thinks that being old or young is much beneficial. There is no homework , no school , there is money and one can dominate and scold the younger ones.

The grass always looks greener on the opposite side.

The friends or schoolmates during childhood have a different approach replaced by professional rivalry in the older stages. There is shyness to express ourselves , lies and straight faces to resrve our feelings inside unlike that in the childhood when we would cry often in public.

This growing up is painful. It takes a long time to realise that we have suddenly grown up and our parents are no longer responsible for our deeds......

I am afraid of growing up more and facing the old age... Yes honestly I am. When I see my grandma ill and dependent just like the child would be dependent on his mom. I am afraid of getting old.